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Nov. 22nd, 2027 04:00 pm
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Name: Mary
Age: 20-something
Gender: female
Contact (AIM): Deutschfag

more under here! )
nachtmusik: (pocky game [Kyoko/Sayaka])
Hi guys. I've been playing Kancolle. It's a Japanese browser game with personified warships. It has taken over my life. It was nice knowing you all.
nachtmusik: (biergarten)
What am I doing. I'm horribly addicted to Kancolle. Yes, the Japanese browser game with the ships that is a pain to get into. What am I even doing.
nachtmusik: (demonic yuri)
Urgh. Right now I'm feeling some polyamory problems. I can't seem to get a girlfriend, or even a fwb, to save my life. I'm beginning to wonder if I'm just not attractive or something. A lot of the queer girls around me that I know aren't monogamous and aren't opposed to non-serious relationships, but I can't get any of them interested in me, it seems. This is kinda depressing.

On a more positive note, my Valentine's Day was lovely. Korey and I went to a nice Italian restaurant for lunch and then TGIF for dinner. We also did other things in between lunch and dinner but no one wants those details... Then, Valentine's Day is also the anniversary of our local gay bar, so they had a fucking crazy party. It was awesome. I got so trashed, though. I had a hangover for almost all of Saturday.

Also, I've started getting really serious about working out regularly and I'm pretty proud of myself for that.
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No much has been going on with me, but I haven't really posted in a while and it's just been pictures of myself, so I figured I may as well give an update.

-I cohost a podcast now! It's called The Eroge Bus and we talk about visual novels. Not just ero ones but that is a lot of what's out there. You can find it at if you're interested.

-My classes have been going well. That in itself is an accomplishment.

-Friday was my friend's birthday so we went to see the Lego movie. It was surprisingly really really good.

-This weekend was Wonderfest and I want too many figures.

That's. Basically it tbh.
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I did a thing with my hair


Jan. 2nd, 2014 09:46 am
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Since I forgot to post them in the other New Year's posts.

-By the end of the year I should have the body I want
-Don't get anything lower than a B in any of my classes, nothing less than an A in German
-Play my violin every single day (with a few exceptions like if I'm traveling)
-Stay on top of current anime seasons
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I always do these so here's another.

As a whole 2013 was a mixed bag leaning more toward bad. I was stressed out and depressed a lot. Korey did a lot of stupid shit that he didn't do in our first year together that added to my stress pretty badly. He also did his best to make up for it and was good to me overall, so we're still together, but it was pretty frustrating to feel super lonely and sad last spring semester and have him not want to talk to me on the phone at all ever. I was lonely a lot since most of my friends were too busy for me, or weren't where I was. School was hard. There was also a lot of good, though, such as ACen, me getting my skin removal surgery, etc. I was able to buy bras in Victoria's Secret for the first time in my life, that was pretty cool. I also got with a couple cute girls that was pretty cool.

Just. Meh. 2014 is going to be better. I'm kicking it off with getting a tattoo on the 6th so there's that. And getting drunk tonight. Very drunk. Yes.

Happy NYE!

Dec. 31st, 2013 03:24 pm
nachtmusik: (pocky game [Kyoko/Sayaka])
Time to do New Year's memes and shit.

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Back home

Dec. 27th, 2013 01:36 pm
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I'm back in Bloomington. Had a great day yesterday with the guys back in Angola. Watched a bunch of Hyperdimension Neptunia together and played Weiss Schwarz and generally had fun. Also Korey and I went to see his mom and brother, which was really nice.

Also short Christmas loot update:

From Korey's mom: $30
From DJ: $25 Barnes and Noble gift card
From Cody: a Nightmare Moon dog tag and Bop It Tetris for both Korey and I.


Dec. 25th, 2013 03:26 pm
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I've had a good holiday so far. Korey and I came back to Angola on the 23rd. Before we left Bloomington, my parents gave us a couple early gifts. I also gave mom her's since I figured she might want it for our early morning the next day (I got her nice coffee), and Korey had me open what he got me, too. We went to Fazoli's for dinner before heading to Angola. I'd forgotten that Fazoli's is delicious.

On Christmas Eve we got up stupidly early to go to Chicago for the Christmas market. It was super fun as always and I had gluwein and bratwurst and potato pancakes and chocolate and we bought a whole stollen. We had dinner at Pizza King when we got home. Awesome.

Today we've just been rolling around as is standard. Whenever Korey's family wakes up we'll go over there.

Here's what all I got:

From Korey:
-Jack Daniels Gentleman Jack

From parents:
-silly Christmas shirt
-cake pop pan
-fuzzy socks

-Tempur-Pedic pillow
-a bunch of nice socks (some are from Sock Dreams)
-2 pairs of arm warmers from Sock Dreams
-a Lush gift set (2 bath bombs, a bath melt, FUN, and a bar of soap)
-Bath and Body Works handsoaps (sweet cinnamon pumpkin, spice kissed pumpkin, peach bellini)
-Bath and Body Works shower gel and bubble bath (dark kiss and Japanese cherry blossom respectively)
-bamboo steamer
-$25 Papa John's gift card
-$25 Dearden Restaurants gift card (so Red Lobster, Longhorn Steakhouse, or Olive Garden)
-Urban Decay eyeshadow primer
-Black Lagoon seasons 1 and 2 blu ray
-Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex (just the first 2 discs)
-Girls und Panzer on blu ray
-Pacific Rim on DVD
-a Bailey's gift set with 2 glasses
-candy cane chapstick
-Utena the movie soundtrack
-Hard Candy blue eyeshadow palette
-a metric fuckton of candy including some from DeBrand's

Extended Family:
Nothing yet

Nothing yet

But I did get a cute plush otter from the anime club white elephant.

Also Korey and my parents loved what I got them. I got a Weiss Schwarz booster box and Victoria's Secret cologne for Korey, nice coffee for mom, and an excessively large bottle of Pabst Blue Ribbon for dad.
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So. I am getting a tattoo on January 6th. I'm ridiculously excited about this. I'm getting violin f holes on my lower back. I've wanted this for a long time, but my fluctuating weight has always made me feel like I can't. Now that I actually can, I'm really happy.

Also I actually get to go home for Christmas! They gave Korey Christmas Day and the 26th off, and we're going to hang out with the guys back in Angola on the 26th. Ah, this is so nice~ It looks like the plan is basically this: my parents are coming to Bloomington tomorrow. We'll probably head back to Angola tomorrow night, then leave for Chicago early on Christmas Eve and take the South Shore in. Then after we're done at the Christmas market we'll go back to Angola and stay there until it's time for Korey and I to leave on the 26th.

So yeah all in all things are good and I am happy. Oh, I even figured out cheap but effective Christmas gifts for my parents. I bought a huge bottle of PBR for my dad since he was a hipster before hipsters were hipsters and it's his favorite beer. I'm getting mom some coffee from the international market today. Still need to figure out a gift for my boyfriend's family, though.

...Speaking of Korey he shouldn't have given me permission to pick up the gift he got me because I am now 99% sure it is an alcohol gift pack but that makes me super happy (and I really hope it's a honey Jack pack)
nachtmusik: (pocky game [Kyoko/Sayaka])
So. Things. I've had some rough shit happen, but I don't want to talk about it so I'll focus on the good.

I've seen a ton of movies lately! I've seen Catching Fire, Frozen, and Madoka Magica Rebellion, and of course I'll be going to see Desolation of Smaug. I want to try to catch Thor 2, also, but kinda doubt if it'll happen.

Catching Fire )

Frozen )

Madoka Magica Rebellion )

In other news, I am getting a tattoo soon. Like, over winter break. I've emailed a tattoo artist for a price quote and I'm just. So excited. It'll be the f holes of a violin on my lower back. I've been practicing my violin more, lately, and I'm sure getting this will encourage me. And I've wanted a tattoo for so long that this is pretty much the most exciting thing.
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So. Korey has to work on Thanksgiving. Until 11 PM. This is kind of bullshit.
nachtmusik: (pocky game [Kyoko/Sayaka])
School is fun. But hard. But fun. Basically here's how life has been for the past month or so:

-Classes started about a week ago. What am I taking?

-German 200
-Japanese 101
-Hungarian 101
-Interior Design lab (1st level)
-Ballroom dancing

Yes this is ridiculous and an excessive amount of foreign languages. No I do not care. Also holy shit so glad I'm taking Hungarian. This class is so fun, and I love this language. I. think I may even like it more than German. Obviously my heart belongs to Germany still and there won't be any alterations in my moving plans, but as a language, Hungarian just. Has me.

Also I'm addicted to Weiß Schwarz. It's a trading card game based on anime. Various different anime. I play from Madoka Magica. My deck was originally 2 trial decks merged, but I went crazy and bought a whole booster box recently, so that deck split in two. What I'm using right now is a green/yellow Madoka/Mami deck. I plan on also making a red/blue Kyoko/Sayaka deck, but there are some cards I need that I don't have but can't really make a strong deck with those two without. The Mami/Madoka deck is pretty boss, though. I playtested it with Korey and devastated him twice. Feeling good about this deck, and it's not even 100% done.

...Speaking of going crazy and spending excessive money, I also bought a hitachi at last! It's. SO GOOD. I also got an attachment for it (because tbh as awesome as they are it's a bit hard to get the vibrations where you want them without an attachment), a Wartenburg pinwheel, and a copy of a Swedish lesbian film that I can't recommend highly enough called Kiss Me. Yeah. I'm responsible with money. To be fair when I bought the hitachi it was when Korey and I were out in Chicago taking Katie home and having our last hurrah of the summer. She took us to what was...basically the gay district. And there were a bunch of sex shops. So I couldn't resist.

Oh yeah I was doing a 30 days meme wasn't I? Let's continue that.

no one cares do they )
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I just feel so stupid and worthless and ugly and undesirable and I just can't make the self-loathing train stop. And I have no one to talk to.
nachtmusik: (pocky game [Kyoko/Sayaka])
I didn't want to put it in with that other post since the read more would have this shit and then my naked tits so here it is by itself.

Day 09 – Your beliefs

I assume this means religious beliefs? Well, I'm Catholic. It's kinda sad, I feel less comfortable telling people I'm Catholic than I do that I'm bisexual. The way bashing Christianity has become so widely accepted on the internet really upsets me. It's pretty common for religious people to not believe every last word of their religion, and it's entirely possible for someone who's Christian to not be homophobic or whatever else. I mean again I am Catholic and bisexual. It's ridiculous, too, because it seems like only Christians get this. Most people who are in fandom and practice say, Islam or Judaism probably aren't following it to a T. And this is okay. I feel like blindly following is bad, but that doesn't make religion bad.

PS, our new pope recently publicly said that he doesn't judge homosexuals, in case y'all missed it.

Day 01 - Introduce Yourself
Day 02 - Your first love
Day 03 – Your parents
Day 04 – What you ate today
Day 05 – Your definition of love
Day 06 – Your day
Day 07 – Your best friend
Day 08 – A moment

Day 10 – What you wore today
Day 11 – Your siblings
Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Day 13 – This week
Day 14 – What you wore today
Day 15 – Your dreams
Day 16 – Your first kiss
Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
Day 19 – Something you regret
Day 20 – This month
Day 21 – Another moment
Day 22 – Something that upsets you
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
Day 25 – A first
Day 26 – Your fears
Day 27 – Your favorite place
Day 28 – Something that you miss
Day 29 – Your aspirations
Day 30 – One last moment
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Oh hey so uh. I had surgery. That is a thing that happened. Specifically I had a tummy tuck and a breast lift. I'll be honest, I've been I bit embarrassed to talk about it. Cosmetic surgery of any sort has so many negative connotations, after all, unless it's medically necessary. I just. Really hated how my stomach looked with all that loose flabby skin hanging off it. My boyfriend wants me to ride him during sex a lot but I almost always refuse or stop and ask that we change positions not long after we start because I hate my stomach so much and hearing it slapping against his skin while I moved was so embarrassing I just wanted to cry. That should tell you how much that fucking skin bothered me. There was so much of it that it constantly formed a bulge in my shorts or pants and it made me look so fat...Also hey, girls, you know about underboob sweat, right? Well imagine the same thing only under your stomach. And it's like 10x worse. Yeah see why I went the "vapid" and "shallow" route of getting a tummy tuck now?

As for the breast lift, just. My breasts sagged so far that my nipples were almost touching my belly button. That was not appealing. Korey did a lot of reassuring me that it looked fine, promised me that he just really liked how big they were and the sagging didn't bug him, etc, and it really helped a lot and my confidence went way up on that issue thanks to him, but it still always bugged me. The sagging almost to my bellybutton thing was just too much.

I'm really REALLY glad I got both these surgeries. I absolutely love my breasts now. For one thing they are smaller (albeit still huge), since excess skin around the tops of my breasts came off, so that may help my back some. But they just look so nice. I'm not ashamed to admit I've been taking off my bra and staring at my breasts every so often. I'm just so happy with how they look!

I'm really happy with my stomach, too, but there's still quite a bit of swelling so it's not really flat yet. My breasts are also swollen, but it's easier to tell their shape and what have you now. But yes, all in all I'm VERY happy I had all of this done. I plan on having brachioplasty sometime within the year, too, but there's not enough time before the fall semester starts to do it soon. That's where they get rid of the loose skin that hangs off the upper arms, for the record.

The recovery has been rough, though. I'm lucky I have my boyfriend because I've needed a lot of help from him. For the first couple days I was in a lot of pain and could barely get up to go to the bathroom even with help. When I had to go, Korey would hold my hands and try to pull me up but pretty often I had to stop him because it hurt and we'd have to wait for me to be ready to try again. It usually took several tries.

Also, the absolute worst part of this? Drains. Thanks to the tummy tuck, I've had two drains in my stomach that go in around the pubic area. The areas where they went in hurt like hell. They suck out fluid that gets trapped in this area in my stomach where it'd have nowhere else to go and I've had to empty them and monitor how much fluid they get. Not fun. I got one of them out today and that was not a fun process either. I almost passed out. I really just want them both gone already though!

Finally, under the cut here I'm going to share a picture of myself from a couple days ago. Now, before you click the read more, note that 1. I'm naked in this. It cuts off above my crotch, but bare breasts. If you don't want to see my breasts, don't click, and 2. There are scars. I mean come on duh I had surgery. It's nothing extreme, you can't see my stomach scars or the scars under my breasts, just the ones around my nipples. But still. Anyway, now that all that's out of the way.

I'm not worried about putting this up online since it's a surgical healing documentation not a sexual nude jfc )


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